it's good to be back.
davis was great. the atmosphere is kind and warm... but the temperature is, well... scorching. it is so hot up at davis. and it's supposed to get even hotter. i literally cooked myself outside. and to think that davis is the largest us campus in terms of land... that's a lot of walking to do (considering i won't have a bike anytime soon). but i guess it'll all work out. i hope.
my class schedule was to look about 19 units (that's more than average, esp. for a freshman), but i've considered to bring it down to about 16-17 units, because i'm joining the marching band. on top of that, i'm going to be getting involved in other student-run organizations... so time allocating is going to be a disaster. i'll just have to make due.
but yeah... davis was good. but i am soooooo glad to be back in wonderful anaheim.
i knew this was going to happen, but i didn't know it would hit me this way. "on your own" is just this term, you know. something that gives you an idea, however half-baked the idea is, about taking care of yourself. i've experienced something that not many people have last year, living with a caregiver and all. but that was by no means "on my own". i was still under supervision of a full-grown adult. now stepping into this college life, there isn't really a parental figure anywhere. and the closest one is about 7 hours away (unless i drive... when i went to orientation, it took 4h30min). plunging into a place where i am going to spend the next 4+ years (well, at least two-- tell about that in later posts) without anybody. it's a scary thought.
you really don't realize you rely on your parents so much until you are away form them. and i mean, away. not just in distance, but in aid as well. think of all the times your parents have given you money. i mean, really. you might complain about having no money, but you are alive, aren't you? they've provided for you a shelter, enough food (so you're not starving), clothes, and care. imagine all of this gone. you now have absolutelyno money to get you anything (unless you work, of course. but that's not nearly enough), no place to sleep, nothing. i'm not saying that i am about to do such thing. my parents will still help me from japan... but not as much. soon, i'll have to learn to make money for myself and be self-reliant.
until then, maybe, you and i should learn to appreciate our parents more. i mean it.
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